Heart Breaking Roar (Thoughts of Billal)

Broken mirror, shattered heart,

I think I've lost to fate!

The one who was a relative in the house of the mind,

Someone else was his beloved.

The first day I spoke of love,

I wouldn't have gotten it back even if I had given it back,

It hurt so much.

I've been silent for a long time,

God knows how much I loved.

Wrapped in a yellow-stained garment,

Nupur was lying.

There was a tree by the pond,

It was a tired afternoon.

After sunset, the evening,

It was pitch dark,

Was it too much to extinguish the lamp of hope?

I have kept my word,

You have not come back,

I have written a story of turning around,

For my whole life.

I have shone a light in the darkness

But still I have not found you,

I was waiting for you

You disappeared.

A camel, thirsty in the scorching sun,

sins in the desert,

swims alone in the turbulent waves

of the Mediterranean Sea.

Maybe I won't reach the shore of happiness,

I have adapted to the crowd of hundreds of people.

I lost my mind in the blink of an eye,

I remained in a daze all the time

just to see a single glimpse.

Days pass by without seeing you for many years,

If you can, repay the debt of love.

Day and night are spent

in the emptiness of the person you call yourself,

Many years have passed,

The intensity of love has not subsided.

Defeated by fate, forced to accept,

Is there any way to keep the one who will leave?

In the crowd of millions of people,

Without you, I did not go to the nest of happiness.

I would have accepted it as fate

If the story were true,

Even after counting the hours in anticipation

You were drunk in love with someone else.

I remember the blue butterfly,

The silence of the wristwatch you gave me.

You are far away, the memories burn every day.

Still float up, in the tune of some songs.

This ordinary me is more precious than a diamond,

You thought even my mother's jewel was cheap.

You have waited and counted the hours with promises,

Your dowry written in someone else's fate.

A life full of mistakes

written with a pen in a notebook,

if I have the luck,

I will see success.

No matter how crowded people are,

at the end of the day,

the people who are cheated,

are fools like me.

I was caught in the

net called Maya,

I could not escape the trap,

but I died.

When your name came up in

the whirlwind of time, you won,

but you lost by a fair vote.

How many rich people are alone

despite having everything,

even an orphan boy wants

to do it without knowing it.

Money can buy goods,

love can't, some dreams and

some hopes remain incomplete.

The love was one-sided,

I realized too late,

Success is more

important than you now.

If you succeed,

love will spread all around,

How many people have been cut

off early in bad times.

The cuckoo calls in spring,

It is good to hear,

Buying friends in good times,

I don't want to turn on the light.